He outed me because he liked me...

  If you like someone, shouldn't you be trying not to hurt them?

  Wouldn't you avoid hurting them at all?

  Lilas, stupidity is actively suffocating me.

  Lilas never does something without reason. He always has a good reason, but this time...

  I like both you and Aalackai, and I want us all to be together.

  This was selfish of him.

  How could he actually believe that outing me would make me want to be with him?

  He thought this was the best way forward?

  He doesn't just want me to be his partner; he wants Aalackai, too.

  His greed makes me sick.

  Is this what happens when you're told from a young age you're going to marry one of your childhood friends or else?

  I was told something similar when I was young, but I never...

  Ok, maybe I have imagined all 3 of us together when we were younger, but I knew better than to actually think it could come true.

  I still know better.

  I'm not delusional, and it's wrong.

  That type of relationship would never work.

  An Alpha, Beta, and Omega trio relationship is a pipe dream.

  Lilas knows it, and I know it, and Aalackai would agree with me...

  Does Lilas truly believe that Aalackai would want to be with two people who have been lying to him?

  I sure as hell wouldn't.

  I should drag Lilas with me and force him to tell Aalackai what he said to me.

  But Aalackai probably doesn't want anything to do with Lilas and me.

  I should leave him alone for the time being.

  I know I should, but my legs started to move on their own. I started to head to the 2nd floor and make my way to his room.

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  What am I doing?

  Turn back.

  Do it now before it's too late.

  He needs his own space.

  He doesn't want to see you.

  He hates you.

  Before I could lose my nerve, I knocked on his door.

  What am I even going to say to him?

  I... am doing what Lilas did to me.

  Am no better than him...If I tell him his secret.

  I waited for a beat, but the door didn't open.

  Does he know it's me and doesn't want to see me?

  Is he not in his room?

  I knock again, but nothing.

  This can't wait.

  Get over yourself, Kitayana.

  I opened the door slowly and slipped in. I closed the door behind me.

  "Aalackai," I whispered, "Can we talk?"

  I give his room a once-over only to see it empty. The curtains were drawn closed and engulfed the room in total darkness.

  "Aalackai, are you here?"

  I heard a faint sound coming from under the bed.

  "No." Someone coughed out.

  "Aalackai, are you hiding under the bed?"

  "No, now get out."

  Walking towards the bed, I peeked under it. Aalackai lay on the floor staring up at his bed frame.

  "Aalackai."

  "Kitayana, get out. I want to be alone."

  Ignoring him, I join him under the bed.

  "It's like I am speaking a different language," He muttered to himself, "Kitayana, what do you want? Why are you here?"He sounded tired. He turned to face me under the bed.

  "I came to talk to you."

  "So, talk. Don't keep me in suspense."

  "I don't know where to start."

  He didn't respond, and I didn't know where to begin.

  So, we lay in silence.

  Damm, Lilas, and his stupidity. If he didn't confess his feelings. I wouldn't be feeling so confused right now.

  I could still be blaming him, not knowing any better.

  I still can...but it doesn't feel right.

  I can't do what he did to me.

  "If... Lilas didn't find you the night you manifested. What would you have done?"

  "Do you want to know the truth?"

  He nodded, but the expression on his face told me he already knew my answer.

  "I would have killed myself... and made it seem like an accident." I said without batting an eye, "That way no one would feel guilty."

  I didn't look at him as I confessed to him one of my many humiliating thoughts.

  "That's how much you hated manifesting as omega?"

  "Yes."

  "Do...you want to do that even now?" He shakenly asked.

  The back of my throat started to tighten.

  "...Yes."

  Slowly, he opened his mouth to ask another question, but then he stopped himself.

  "Am... not going to do anything...I don't feel like this because you know Aalackai. I feel like this because I don't want to be like this," I took a slow steadying breath, "I don't hate other omegas just...myself. I am ashamed. I feel dirty." My chest began to rise and fall rapidly.

  Don't do it, don't you dare.

  You can't cry.

  "I feel the same way."

  "...You do?"

  He nodded.

  "Do you also want to..."

  "I did..."

  "You did? Why don't you now?"

  "Because I have you and Lilas now. "

  "Lilas is stupid," I said, giggling as tears started to rain down my face.

  "He is."

  "Are you angry with us?"

  "Both you and Lilas are people that I can't be truly angry with. I am just hurt."

  "Am sorry."

  "Don't be...let's just not keep any more secrets from one another anymore."

  I nodded, "Kai, I am still angry. I don't know if I can forgive him."

  "Don't force yourself."

  "I won't...but Lilas told me the reason why he did what he did."

  "Did he, now? That was surprisingly quick." Aalackai said dryly.

  "Do you want me to tell you?"

  "No, he can tell me himself."

  I let out a sigh of relief.

  "I think once you talk to him...you're going to want to kill him."

  "You don't say?"

  "Aalackai, Lilas is stupid."

  Aalackai didn't say anything; instead, he pulled himself and me out from under his bed.